blurred blogging

i'm challenging myself to blog. every day for the rest of the summer. short or long, i'm going to blog my heart's pondering for the day. maybe because i need some consistency in my life right now. maybe because my thoughts need somewhere to go other than cycling through my brain. maybe because i want to get over my mindset that if it's not deep and doesn't really speak to someone, then it is meaningless and not worth writing. maybe because i like to ramble. maybe because i feel like God has gifted me with insight into situations and He is asking me to share. maybe it's because even though there aren't words to say some things, i still want to try. maybe it's because i always forget the things i long to remember and this is a way of bringing them to memory. maybe it's just because i've always wanted to blog seriously but have never "had time." maybe because this has been a dream in my heart, and as many other dreams have died over the years or have been put on hold, this one is actually practical and something i can actually do. there are alot of maybes right now, not only about blogging, but in my life. things are, well..blurry. and it might only be in hindsight that i really understand why i am doing this. or maybe, i may never know why. but nevertheless..here. we. go.